fear

tonight was the first night that I really felt afraid of what's in store for my future. maybe its because now I'm in charge of a family. Before it was just me and decisions like this were a little easier because it only affected me.

not any more.

the thing is...as afraid as I am, I know God has great things planned. As long as we are making decisions based on what God has put on our hearts or have said to us, we'll be great. This morning, I just preached to the 5th and 6th grade that we should be humble people. Man...is that hard. What I mean is...I could sit here and give a ton of reasons as to why I should just get a regular job with benifits and great (or just good) pay, but I know that's not what God has put on our (Liz and I) hearts. We have a calling that we can't deny.

I'm also afraid because of my lack of a degree at this point. I'm afraid that people will look at that and think less of me because I don't have it completed YET. The thing is...I didn't finish because I felt God saying that it wasn't time yet; that He wanted me elsewhere, which was Queen Creek. For that, I am completely humbled and thankful for. If He didn't put that on my heart, man...my life would be different. Probably no Liz. Probably no...lots of things. :) So if I know that it was God sending me away from school at this time, who am I to think that He isn't bigger then a degree?

I guess what sums this up is...at this point, God is taking my world apart...in a good way.

Exciting, yet scary.